for your shit
i hate you
i cant believe i let myself believe we were actually cool
i was surprised that we went that long without a huge fight
it was nice
i thought, “hey, maybe things really have started to change”
see thats where i fucked up
when it comes to you and me,
there is no such thing as change
at least no change that sticks
you can change for a few days..but its all just part of your game
the second i do something on my own and you dont have all of my time to control at your convenience,
completely fucking different person
so explain something to me
how does having my own life make me guilty of doing something wrong
how does having my own life give you reason or right to scream insults at me as though i am less than human
how does having my own life permit you to project all of your compounding anger onto me for absolutely no reason
ive made too many excuses for you
told too many lies for you
wasted too much of my life waiting for something to change
waiting for a miracle that i know will never come
im done waiting.
insanity is making the same decisions over and over and expecting a different outcome.
well im done being insane.