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this was quite possibly the biggest waste of time in the history of forever. fuck you computer for fucking up my paper the first time so i had to rewrite 60% of it after i had already spent hours and hours and hours writing it the FIRST time while being a stubborn perfectionist about it and refusing to sleep until it was absolutely perfect. fuck you microsoft word for freezing my computer when i went to save my final draft. fuck you time locks on stupid drop-boxes for online paper submission that wont let u submit your work if you are even one second past the deadline. fuck you depaul-online-course-website-bullshit that has never taken more than a few seconds to load but somehow took 17 minutes to load the ONE time i needed it to load quickly. fuck this shit. aghhhh. too fuckin tired to even process how frustrated i am right now. and the fuckin worst part is, the work i was attempting to submit contained some of the best and most thoroughly thought-out writing ive ever written. for any class. ever.



now that i got that out of my system.. i really hope this professor will cut me a break and let me submit this shit anyway. drop my grade i dont care, just as long as i can get SOME credit for it after i somehow managed to keep my eyes open and keep working and not say fuck it even though all i wanted to do was SLEEP lol. hopefully it will all work out and i wont have put my time and effort into a class just to fuck up my gpa. but if not, then whatever, the world will not collapse and it wont kill me. c’est la vie.
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last week i was floating in the dead sea…now im drowning in my anger

just got back from israel.
found out i lost my scholarship. well.. its not GONE its just “suspended”
which is bullshit
having a job to pay (for) bills/rent/tuition/student loans/textbooks/etc. makes it a lot harder to maintain random ass eligibility requirements (unless you NEVER have to sleep at all, in which case it is slightly less difficult but still extremely challenging). suspending financial aid/scholarship funds increases the amount of money that a student needs to come up with in order to pay for school. chances are, this would require the student to (a) work more hours per week, (b) pick up a second job, (c) participate in various illegal activities for additional income, (d) waste time [that could be spent studying] searching for other sources of financial aid, (e) lose motivation and feel like just giving up, or (f) some combination of any/all of the above options. most (if not all) of these things are likely to result in a decline in the student’s performance in school, which was the inital problem that lead to the financial aid suspension.. so in actuality, this policy creates a cycle that makes it harder and harder for the student to be able to succeed, even if the student is capable of being successful in school and simply had a few rough quarters along the way.

im pissed, to say the least.
i work my ass off in school and in every other aspect of my life.. and this shit has got me to the point where i dont even see the point anymore.
the worst part is i actually was feeling really good about this quarter cuz so far all my classes seem pretty interesting and i actually like all my professors.

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