4 days without a cigarette while with my family. …..baaaaaaaaaad idea
3 panic attacks in one morning
Insanely exhausted now
but this is the most satisfying cigarette I’ve smoked in years
One thing I love about Germantown: no matter where I am on this property, the view is gorgeous.
Going through a bit of city withdrawal, but the sky at night makes up for it a little. Never seen so many stars (even if it’s cloudy, you can still see what a huge difference the light pollution of a big city makes).
I miss home though. I can’t imagine living anywhere other than chicago for amy extended period of time. I know what its like to feel homesick, after living in Utah for almost a year, but this is a different kind of homesick. I can’t really put my finger on it, but I just feel off somehow. Like my world is out of balance somehow.
I dunno. Sometimes I think vacations are more stressful than anything else.
Hopefully today will be better now that I have some nicotine in my system.