why am i so in the dark about everything when it comes to you?
to your “job”?
when did germany become afghanistan?
why did this not seem like something that would be important to tell me?
i cried when you left.
but i wasnt too worried.
now i cant sleep until i know you’re home safe
i cant stop my thoughts from racing
so afraid of losing you
of you being in harms way
i wish i never let you get away the first time
then maybe you never would have left this time
never would have gone away
you would be finishing up school
instead of risking your life
now everyday is nothing but a mystery
why did he
leave without telling me
what he was getting himself into
..sorry i cant even finish this right now. its too much to handle and im crying too hard to see the keyboard..